Where are you?

"Where are you?"  I am so desperate to know...I look into my reflection in the lens and I beg...I plead for you to come. Who am I ? Where am I? This person I am to become. When will she find me? Take over me...guide me? Doesn't she know I need her? Her strength...her breath...her life...
Might I see a glimpse? Can I Capture a moment...an image...anything...in which to feel...witness...foresee your presence? Can I wait...be patient...not hide? 

I can't wait...I can be patient though and I will not hide. For I must find her...seek her...absorb her. She is some where inside of me growing slowly....taking her sweet tyme. Allowing me to develope...transform...metamorphis...fully discover what it takes to be her. So I go slow...I move slow... I'll grow slow. So I go on and I search...for the answer to my desperate hearts question...Where are you? Who are you? This person...the woman...I am to become?